So Fast

In a blink of an eye, November is ending.
Don't know why, once in a while I always get mood strike ._.
Emo emo emo =.=
Please la, I was freaking okay all these while even this morning..
Unless its because of my terrible terrible flu I had today -.+ Ish.
Seriously terrible flu again. Now okay already. Ofcourse la, once full day already man.
Sheesh la. Everyone watched 2012. I seriously want to watch with any friend but everyone watch already!!
Eyer.....................
Yer.
Haih.
Sobs.
Emo-ing.
About everything.
Seriously everything.
I'm so weird. Sometimes so so positive, sometimes emo striked me negative.
Cheese -.-
...
Feel like screaming. RAHH!!!
Mental retardedness. Don't know what's wrong with me.
Rrrrrrr.
* stares



zzzzzzzzzzz

People people!! I'm so busy. But I'm actually so free.
Call me out I may go, call me out I may not be available..
I have no idea what am I talking about but it's really true.
I am a very free person. But yet I'm so so busy =.=
Hey people. Music is my friend. Jann asked me why I'm always listening to music. That was when I noticed it was kinda like my friend.
Cheese -.- I want a good earphone!!!!!!!!!!! =( =( =(
Yer.
That would be like so freaking awesome man.....................................
I wanna go Curve... Who wanna go?
I wanna go.............................................
Aiyo.
Ergh.
Nitez. zzzz -.-

Casting Crowns - Who Am I Lyrics

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am yours..
I am yours..



A very.. very beautiful song ♥

Switchfoot - On Fire

Tell you where you need to go
Tell you who you need to be
Tell you what you need to know
Tell you when you'll need to leave

But everything inside you knows
Says more than what you've heard
So much more than empty conversations
Filled with empty words

Chorus:

And you're on fire
When he's near you
You're on fire
When he speaks
You're on fire
Burning at these mysteries

Give me one more time around
Give me one more chance to see
Give me everything you are
Give me one more chance to be... (near you)

Cause everything inside looks like
Everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I'll take

Chorus:
When I'm on fire
When you're near me
I'm on fire
When you speak
And I'm on fire
Burning at these mysteries
These mysteries...

I'm standing on the edge of me (x3)
I'm standing on the edge

Chorus:

And I'm on fire
When you're near you
I'm on fire
When you speak
(yea) I'm on fire
Burning at these mysteries...



Just love this song :)

Switchfoot - Yet

All attempts have failed
All my heads are tails
She's got teary eyes
I've got reasons why
I'm losing ground
And gaining speed
I've lost myself
Or most of me
I'm ready for the final precipice

But you haven't lost me yet
No, you haven't lost me yet
I'll sing until my heart caves in
No, you haven't lost me

These days pass me by
I dream with open eyes
Nightmares haunt my days
Visions blur my nights
I'm so confused
What's true or false
What's fact or fiction after all
I feel like I'm an apparition's pet

But you haven't lost me yet
You haven't lost me yet
I'll run until my heart breaks in
No, you haven't lost me yet
Oo, oo, yeah

If it doesn't break
If it doesn't break
Yeah, if it doesn't break your heart it isn't love
Now if it doesn't break your heart it's not enough
It's when you're breaking down with your insides coming out
It's when you find out what your heart is made up of

And you haven't lost me yet
No, you haven't lost me yet
I'll sing until my heart caves in
No, you haven't lost me yet


I ♥ this song man :)

Switchfoot - Enough To Let Me Go

Oh
I'm a wandering soul
I'm still walking the line that leads me home
Alone
All I know
I still got mountain to climb
On my own
On my own

Do you love me enough to let me go?
To let me follow through
To let me fall for you
Do you love me enough to let me go?

Back from the dead of winter
Back from the dead and all our leaves are dry
You're so beautiful, tonight

Back from the dead we went through
Back from the dead and both our tongues are tied
You look beautiful tonight

But every seed dies before it grows

Breathe it in
And let it go
Every breath you take is not your to own
It's not your to hold
Do you love me enough to let me go?


Love this song :D Check out the song Always too!

Justin Bieber - Down To Earth Lyrics

I never thought that it'll be easy
Cause we both so distance now
And the walls are closing in on us
And we're wondering how
No one has a solid answer
But just walking in the dark
And you can see the look on my face
It just tells me apart

So we fight (so we fight) through the hurt (through the hurt)
And we cry (and cry and cry and cry)
And we live (and we live) and we learn (and we learn)
And we try and try and try and try

So its up to to you and its up to me
That we meet in the middle
On our way back down to earth
Down to earth down to earth
On our way back down to earth
(back down to earth - repeat)

Mommy you were always somewhere
And daddy I live outta down
So tell me how could I ever be normal somehow
You tell me this is for the best
So tell me why am I in tears
So far away and now I just need you here

So we fight (so we fight) through the hurt (through the hurt)
And we cry (and cry and cry and cry)
And we live (and we live) and we learn (and we learn)
And we try and try and try and try

So its up to to you and its up to me
That we meet in the middle
On our way back down to earth
Down to earth down to earth
On our way back down to earth
(back down to earth - repeat)

We fell so far away from where we used to be
Now we're standing and where do we go
When there's no road to get to your heart
Let's start over again

So its up to to you and its up to me
That we meet in the middle
On our way back down to earth
Down to earth down to earth
On our way back down to earth
(back down to earth - repeat)

I never thought that it'll be easy
Cause we both so distance now
And the walls are closing in on us
And we're wondering how.



I love this song :)

Away

I will be away from Sunday till Thursday.
Might have a small chance of going online though.
After that I seriously want to have plans and go shopping and jamming.
Time flew like super fast. I seriously need to make plans before school starts again man.
I want to craft toooo! My gosh. Seriously ultimate busy after PMR.
Hee, sorry if I always claim I'm busy.. But... I really am man.
Not busy for useless stuff like games or what, busy for useful stuffs :)
Busy for a good cause.
So... Yeah. I don't know what shall I bring there to do.
No idea man.
Oh well. Didn't plan much too. Just have fun with on the spot plans :D
Haha.
See yal! ☺

Here's my facebook status, created it out of randomness. :P
Time flew like butterflies. Seconds later, they've gone away. Time flew, I created the past. Seconds later, I'll be away from home.

Awwwe, Thanks!

I want to thank so many people :)
But first, I want to thank Him, God.
Life is just full of wonders.
I love all my family, my friends, my teachers, my school, my dog, my food, my hobbies, my talents, my everything, and myself :)
I like to touch people, motivate and share my experience etc.
But I never expect them in return.
And get really really touched when I receive them :)

I want to thank my dad, mum, and my both sisters.
As a family, I'm glad each time we all are present for dinner, for occasions, for chats...
Although so many times we are busy, we know it inside that we are still present in each other's heart.
So many times we get hurt by each other. But why?
Why will we get hurt?
Do you know... We get hurt because we care? Because we love them so much :)

I want to thank my teachers.
My form teacher for being such a great teacher and friend to all of her students, for always caring for us, for being so generous to us.
My teacher who once taught me moral during form 1, I still miss you. It's very long already since you left. But I will still always remember the beauty of your heart inside :)
My teacher who taught me moral and art, I also miss you. You left months ago. We haven't contacted since then. But you created valuable moments with us. And I still always tell my friends about you :)
My maths teacher, so loving and caring, so kind, so lovely. Thanks for always sharing your story with us. Thanks for giving me the motivation and words. They really made me smile inside my heart :)
So many teachers, I can't really list them all down. But ofcourse, I honour all the efforts put for their students, especially teachers who put so much efforts for their students. And I'm so glad how my teachers appreciated my personal drawings for each of them. Although it's such a passed event, but I still feel really happy, how they appreciate it so much :)

I also want to give a really extra big thanks to really every single friend of mine, whether old or new, kindergarden, primary, secondary... I really feel so glad to have you all.
This one is way too many to list down. But whoever you are, reading this or not, I thank you deep inside my heart. Thanks for being really great friends. Although so many times we may not be able to spend time together, but inside the core of my heart I love you all. Yes, you. The person reading it now. Regardless of how well you know me. Regardless if I don't really know you. Regardless whether we hardly ever talked. Regardless if you are just a passer by. You're reading this. I already appreciate it alot. Thank YOU ☺

Thank you to all of my friends throughout my life. Although you may not even remember me anymore, but I still can remember my childhood. And yes I also thank my dearest kindergarden teacher. I still clearly remember! :) Thank you, my dear form teacher who taught me for 4 years straight! Thank you all so so much!

And to the current friends I spend time with this few days, thanks a lot too.
My lil sis, Keertana and the awesome 'brothers', Christian and Kadri.
Big thanks for every little thing. Really, thank you. And I will always remember the great wild times spent together withmy mei since form 1.
Thanks so much for everything. Thanks for letting me share my thoughts, motivating me, being there just for me, cheering me up when I'm down, giving me strength when I am weak, opening doors with your keys for me to explore, spending so much quality time with each other... I really appreciate them a lot deep in the heart. Thanks for all the awesome times.
Thanks Keer for all that. So much. Too many :) Thanks Chris for everything too. Also to include your awesome composed song, and also singing Dare You To Move on stage part of for me? Yea, I still love that song so much :) Thanks Kad for spending great times too. And always being able to stay back most of the time :P

All the walks, all the memories. Quality memorable valuable times spent with each and everyone of you. I love you all inside me. Maybe we only talked once, maybe we even talked a lot but only at one stage... Life is a continuous journey. And all the walks are the footsteps left behind so memorable. Thank all of you. My dear kor, jie, di, mei... Thanks :)

In many times we feel sad, we feel unsatisfied... Sometimes it's simply because we compared with each other. Yes, I'm touching this topic again.
Remember! Everyone is different and gifted in their own ways, why compare with each other when each of us are so unique in our own way? It's like comparing a runner and a swimmer with the same time. I don't care how many times I repeat all my lines, mottos and sayings, especially to myself ☺ I find quality in them. Some may change a situation, some may change a life. But I'll just do my part to share what's in my heart :)

All that have passed, all that will arrive... I'm always grateful inside.
All the challenges defeated, all the upcoming challenges... We're always growing, always gaining experiences.
All the things we've done, all the things that will be done... Never regret. Life is not dead, move on.
All the ups and downs, all the failures and success... Always appreciate them. Imagine if there weren't sad, tough, challenging moments... You won't be who you are today :)
All the things and people I have met, all the things and people I will meet... All these will be the fulfillment of the journey in my life. ☺

I'm not leaving, I'm not sick, I'm not crazy, I'm not dying, I'm not having mental problem or anything. I'm taking the time to once express what I feel inside. The core of my heart has many difficulties expressing how it feels, and I have put alot of effort to dig them all out.

To each and everyone of you who are or are not reading this, All the Best in life! (no, don't depend on luck) Yes, I said it :) Always wish someone all their best. What's more important is the true heart.

And again, thanks :) Words may not best describe what I feel inside, but I described my best of how I feel inside. :)

From The Heart

Many times I do it in the heart.
And end up bleeding instead.
But I still never give up.
I always pray :)
God's always there.
Life get's harder. Especially each time you do something good.
You may not mind getting nothing in return, but what came instead were the negatives.
Life is unfair. But as a naive person in a positive way, I always try to turn the negatives into a positive instead.
I may sound so strong, but as every successful person gone through, failures.
I break down, I cry... I pray......
I am weak. But He is strong.
Without Him, I'm nothing.
So for Him, I just do good in my heart.
No one at all may see them, instead blame me, scold me, anything...
But I know He see's me.
That's why no matter how deeply hurt my heart gets, God lifts me back up.
I am thankful for Him.
I am thankful for my family.
I am thankful for my friends.
But so many times in life I find it so hard to express my true feelings.
I always have this in my heart wondering, if only I have a loudspeaker on my heart..
And sometimes tears just come out all of a sudden.
And I cannot let it out.
Imagine out of the blue you see someone tearing up while nothing happened, mental problem?
Well.
I really wanted to thank so many things to so many people.
Even people who didn't do good.
I always pray for them :)
And... I cried today out of the blue, no one noticed ofcourse, I cried because..
I was thanking people, so many people, so many things, God's wonderful gifts, God's great plans, God's challenges.... I was only thanking them inside my heart and I already cried.
Imagine how hard it takes to speak out ._. But I know doing it in the heart is always more better.
Be genuine. Do it from the heart :)
But many times we only see things that happens outside, so we don't really know what's in the hearts.
That's one thing, I've always wanted to understand people more, by knowing the inner them :)
I don't know why.
It's just me :)
Sometimes you see me so weird.
Sometimes I may be left out because I don't match the likeness.
But again, as the positive naive thinking, I define that as 'unlike any other' instead :)
Just like my handmades. They each have their own kind, own uniqueness.
One of a kind :)
So each time I receive comments of my odds, my brain may feel sad, but my heart translates them into the positive meaning instead :)
In life, there are always up and downs, negatives and positives.
Sometimes we really want to be positive but we couldn't help ourselves at that moment...
But time may be our invisible plaster.
What is life without downs at all?
What is life without challenges?
What is life without meaning?
Think positive :)
And you may notice, it is always each time I'm feeling down where I write down meaningful motivations.
In some ways, I feel better.
As said, to be happy is to give others happiness :)
I do feel it that way :)
A BIG hug and a BIG thanks to all the people and things that were mentioned in my heart :)
You need not know who or what :)
I do it from the heart <3

Never

Never look down on people.
One simple rule that not many understands.
Never judge someone by their looks.
One simple mistake made by many people.
Never compare.
One simple fact people always do.

If you look down on people, who do you think you are?
You may be good at something, and people are better in their own things.
If you judge someone by their looks, do you think it's true?
What you see is what you think. And most of the time it's just misunderstandings.
The heart is inside. You can never see someone's gift inside their hearts from their looks.
If you compare, does it make you satisfied?
Everyone is different. We are all gifted in our own ways.
If you compare, it's like comparing a runner and a swimmer with the same time.
What is that?

Never, never, never..
It's like judging it's nutrients by it's taste.

Genting Trip

Came back from Genting yesterday.
Of all day, the weather was so fine on the third day when we're going back!! Yerr! -.=
I sat cork screw. I was holding the thing so hard until my hands went numb after that. And I screamed until cannot scream, just way too fast, 2 rounds 360°!
And I lined up for go kart 2 times, 1st time duing 1st day, after waiting so long, it rained. Closed -.- Then 2nd time was 2nd day, waited so long, went off because we had to go for lunch -.- Then 2nd day evening, we played together. 2 round or 3 rounds. And one round 6 laps. I remember my last round of playing, I was the very last kart to go. And ended up the 1st car to reach! But so lonely, infront or behind nobody at all -.-
Then I played space shot. Crazy wei!! All of a sudden, you don't know when, the thing will just fly down at so high speed, my legs flew up, I couldn't even bring it down, my body flew, as in out of the seat, ofcourse got the safety belt things la. Like oh my gosh! And I a bit phobia of the sound of the air coming out of the poles already. Haha! So fast man that thing! My gosh! Haha xD
Indoor theme park wasn't fun.. I only like bumper car. And for bumper car and go kart, I steer with my right hand only. Haha. I get to 'drive'!!
The weather there is superb. I love it man. Awesome. Can't see anything -.-
And oh yea. The hotel room, was supposed to sleep with Aslene. But I sleep earlier than her. And she's afraid of the dark and sleeping alone. So she shifted out and slept with her friends. Haha! And I slept 2 nights myself, offed all the lights, left toilet lights, door closed. Woe. Hahaha. And I didn't know how badly haunted is Genting -.- Luckily I only hear stupid stories after I came back. Haha. No la. Actually, a lot of times I walked myself, from hotel to shopping to indoor theme park and so on. Slept myself in total darkness, but I knew I wasn't alone at all. Because I feel Christ in me :) Really.
You know, I uploaded the pictures last night. I was laughing like mad when I noticed the picture I took at night, the view from the hotel window, freaking countless orbs! HAHAHAHAHA!!! WOooooo ~~~ BOO! HAhahahaha. >< And mummy also scared of me already, she told me when she went to Cambodia, she slept with 1 light on. Hhahahahahahahhaha. Oh well :) I never see or hear ghost stories or anything one. I'm just not interested. And don't want to hear -.- Lame. I know they exist, and I know Jesus is with me :) So scared what? Trust Him ;D For pictures, quite lazy to upload it here. Uploaded on facebook, go check it out :) I don't know what happen to the internet, so slow. Have to use Internet Explorer, I don't know what happen to Google Chrome -.- Cannot browse properly at all. Ish. Man.. Try to scan with BitDefender also cannot. -.- Aih. I brought 1 cup noodle and 2 packs of maggie mee. Reused the cup. Save my storage space and money :P I also brought the snack pack, salmon tuna with the round biscuits thing. I love it man! Ate for 2 days breakfast. Awesome :D Then I brought cheese sticks, bought it at a real low bargain price. Tasted awesome! Saved me during my gastric in the theme park. I brought ginger too. Always my best natural healer. Supplied me heat and also healed my flu. :) Ofcourse, I had to bring my swiss knife. Jenggg :P On the first day at night, I was waking around the mall, shopping.. Then met up with Shum, Marissa, Justin and Kimberly. Then Shum said, eh Jesslyn, I haven't get you your birthday present yet right.. Then I straight away pull him and showed him what I wanted. Hahhaahha. While he was saying, eh but the price must..must be..... Then I showed him what I wanted and the price - RM9.90. Then he said, ok la.. Hahahahahha. Man I love it so much! It's the kokeshi doll! I love it I love it!!! I saw it before, I forgotten where! Online or some shops... I don't know. I got the black one, Nanami, it's one of the Kimmidolls. And I didn't know it's feature! It lights up all the colours with sequence when you receive anything or something with your handphone. I was like, oh my goshhhh ahhhhhh so nice!!! I was quite amazed ><>< Lucky doll? Haha. Thanks Shum!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D And.... One more... In Genting, the outdoor theme park.. The game booths that you have to buy tokens to play... Of all the prizes, I only like the small fluffy bear. I love it! But I couldn't win it -.- And I saw it because Scott had it. I wanted it so badly. Haha. Then I wanted to buy it from him. He said RM10, he spent RM8, so RM2 profit. Haha. I said, reserve for me first. But the next day, he asked me if I really want it, he'll give me because he don't really want it also. So he gave it to me. Aww. Yay!!! I love it man.. So cute!! So..... Cute........! Thanks Scott!!!!!!!!!!!! :D And then you know at the outdoor theme park, they sell this sweet baked potato... I remember I randomly saw someone's blog that said it was really yummy although it's a bit expansive. So I wanted to try it. But Aslene asked me not to pay, she belanja. Awwwe. Haha. Thanks Aslene!!! I love you!!! :P :P We shared half half, and it was so yummy she bought another one >< Hahaha. Thanks Aslene!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D And oh yea, I bought myself this keychain, it's written my birth date on it. Bought at BUM City also, where I met Shum. It's a light blue piggy, it can only be the head, and it can be the whole body. Maybe you should see the pictures in my facebook, you'll get what I am trying to say >< Yeah, bought it at RM5. Hehe. Something I haven't seen before. So cool. >< Gimmick. Hehehe. Okay, going out later. My feet so pain yesterday, walked Genting for days so long non stop -.- I went home, walked on concrete floor, hahahahahaha pain ahh. ><
Kay la. Till then :D
Thanks again, people! :)

Second Prize!!!

THANKS EOE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so happy!

After patiently waiting for the results....

Unexpectedly right after coming back from Genting trip, opening my hotmail inbox... I received EOE's notification that I got SECOND PRIZE!!!! Yeaaahhhh!

Check it out here!!

I won TWO Philips 1GB SA3115 Mp3 players (black) total worth RM498.00!!

Yes, TWO!! The competition is about 'Just 2', because it's their 2nd anniversary!

And yes, I spent suite some time thinking what shall I submit :D

I actually wanted 1st prize, Samsung cameras. But come to think of it, I think of all the prizes, 2nd prize is the best. Because I can borrow either my mum or dad's camera, and the quality is good. And remember, recently my heart had a sharp poke when Keer dropped my mp3 and the cover broke ><>

So I had been looking at mp3 players although I know I won't allow myself to buy one.

And yea, I saw the reviews of the Philips mp3 player, not bad :D

And I really didn't expect to win the top 3 after seeing so many other creative submissions!

So I was actually quite hopeless. But ofcourse, I still hope to win :D

Can you imagine? Second prize! ><><

And it's 1gb, at least it's bigger and fits more songs compared to 512mb lar ><

Oh my goshh..... Thanks EOE! I won again this year! So happy! Yehhh!

I won RM30 voucher last year :P And I forgotten what other prize, I didn't collect it.. My dad lazy to fetch, so far -.-

Anyway, I love you EOE!! ><

It's so gonna be another of my next baby! Yayyyyy!

Thanks!! Muax muax muax hugz hugzzz!!!

God Bless!

Really.

Thanks for today guys :)
Gonna miss you all although it's just a few days -.-

Not going school tomorrow.

Going Genting on Wednesday..

Today, had lunch at Ikea again with Keer, Kad and Chris again.

Gave them a handmade wired name each, they loved it :D

I'm happy :) They're touched x)

Spent quite a moment on them. Did it with patience and heart :) My dear friends...

But well, I notice since small, each time I meet a really good friend, they're leaving soon.. -.-

Always like that... :'(

I notice.. As a person who has a really wide variety of interests.. I tend to do different hobbies at different times according to my heart and inspiration. Sometimes, I play piano.. I do crafts.. I draw.. I paint.. I sing.. I write.. I compose.. So many more. And each time I do something according to my heart, things turn out better than expected :) Without sketches, without plans.. I just do according to my heart. That's how I go with all my ideas. I do it on the spot. Always on the spot. And for example if I ain't in the mood of doing something, but I do it for the sake of doing it and not really because my heart wants to, things I do or make turn out not nice at all. Like a piece of crap. Meaningless, plain, ugly. Same goes to if I want to blog or not. Sometimes I have so much to type, sometimes for the sake of updating it, I try to type but... What comes out isn't with pure heart.

I like to do it with heart and willingness. And I never liked to do bad things man. I don't like it when friends say bad words or such. And I'm happy when I make others happy, seeing them moving forward, and I don't like some people who tend to pull others down for their own success. What is that? If you do so, that's not your success. That's your cheat to yourself.

Anyway. As a person who isn't talkative but typetive.. I don't know how to express myself face to face. And it's such a difficulty, sometimes I really want to tell what's inside but I don't know why it doesn't come out. And there are times how I look don't express what I'm thinking inside. People may probably think I'm like a monster. But inside, barely poeple can tell... Well.. I'm glad at least I have good friends :)

And not only you guys are touched, I am too. And really wanna thank you all... So much :)

All of my friends. Really.

And when I mean something from my heart, I mean it. Really.

And it hurts if you think I'm joking -.- Really.

Time.

I always hoped theres more time.

Life is short.

Live life the fullest :)

... And.. I'm listening to a great song :)

Good night ☺