Saved

This is a picture back in Bintulu. How I miss that place.

Went to the supermarket just now with my mum to buy food for dinner. The good old barbeque!

There were really a lot of people, compared to the usual times. Well, maybe because it's a holiday since it's Malaysia's independance day. 53rd Merdeka!

Well after that, during our journey home, something happened that made my heart went crazy!

It's like almost near heart attack or some kind or massive load of blood rush - I don't know!

It was raining, and my mum was driving home.

The view isn't so clear, and there were many cars on the road.

Right before the tunnel at Kota Damansara, my mum was like talking to me and just at the moment she asked me to look on the left, a car on the left lane suddenly cut into our lane, was still in a distance and thank God I did not look on the left but saw the car just rudely and all of a suddenly coming into the way! I screamed for once for our life like - Ma, FASTER STOP NOW!!!!!!!!!
Gosh, I was like panic inside, but not with panic or over reacting kind of reactions, just serious and all I could do is stop and stare.

Mum scolded me like - Don't need to shout like that la!

Then she started to brake, and the brake went on harder and harder.

The car was quite fast, so it took longer to brake. When we were really reaching and touching the car that was cutting into the lane, I felt a little hopeless feeling because we really couldn't make the brake. Mum had to turn a little to the right but not too much or else we would bang the curb instead.

At that moment we made a full stop, I prepared closing my eyes for a crash, but God opened my eyes.

We were just so tiny bit close to getting crashed, but by God's grace, we were saved!

I was so shock and it really took quite a while for my heart to calm down and stop stunning with eyes wide open. I really really thank God so much! Oh how many times have He saved us? Thank You, Lord! ♥

And I was wondering, what if I denied following my mum to shop just now, she might have gotten into an accident. And it was God telling me, just go. Seriously, I didn't really felt like going this afternoon.

His amazing plans, amaze me. :)

And from this incident, I learn and flash back many things. I bring back many thoughts. Still thinking. And maybe, He is telling me something. Because these few days, I'm in some ways quite down. And a lot of thoughts come in. I don't know how to explain it. But I'm trying to slowly get the message. :)

By God's grace, we are saved. By God's grace, I am saved, again.

Hallelujah! ♥

Last

Today is the last night for Connexion Bandar Utama. Nooo! :'(
It's sad, bad its also like a new beginning because it don't just end there, but expanding it.

Next Sunday onwards, it will become 'Connexion Antioch'. I don't know if I'll be able to go and all but I'll just let things go as planned by Him.

If I'm not wrong, I think it's my 5th week there? Yeah, I only joined them recently.

Thanks Janning for bringing me there :)

Connexion is great. Feel's like a warm place filled with love and blessings.

Love it.

:B

Jess. Jann. Jov.

These Mac pictures never fail to make me laugh. Taken using my Singapore aunt's Mac computer, but I forgotten when. A lot of brilliant pictures but I'm afraid I'll get killed by posting the awesome priceless pictures xD

Thanks For The Rain :)

I prayed to the Lord for it to rain today so that I don't have to water the plants. Earlier after the short rain, it was still a hot day. And guess what. As I was just getting ready to go water the plants, rain started pouring although the sun is still out! :)

Praise the Lord!

;)

Exam is coming, I'm being weird again. Just read the further part of my post. I think it's quite cool. :B Told you exam is near. Anyway, can't really study, can't really concentrate. Why? No interest. Because? Whenever I open Add Maths, I get drowned by numbers. Don't have a workbook with working at the answers. I never go tuitions before. And, I always get stuck. That's how I lose interest and gain fear.

Tak ape la. Sekarang, biarlah ku rehat sekejap. Ku sekarang berada di rumah bersendirian. Tadi, mak telah beli ayam goreng untuk makan malam. Awal kan? Lucu la. Tadi masa makan siang, tapi beli makanan untuk makan malam pulak. Sekarang dah pukul enam lebih. Ku dah lapar juga. Nanti akan memanaskan dan memasak makananku.
Aik, dah lama tak tengok sinetron Indonesia. Dulu, ku suka banget tengok Sinetron Cinderella dan Sinetron Olivia. Ku suka pelakon Cinta Laura.. Dia lebih tua daripada saya satu tahun je. Hebat kan. Ku masih ingat masa ku tingkatan dua, ku suka menulis lirik lagu Hilang yang dinyanyi oleh Susan Neva dan Ujo di atas meja sekolah. Hehe, conteng. Shh! Tapi ku guna pensel je la :P Lirik lagu tu masih ada kat blog ini, di sini. Lagu tu dari Sinetron Cinderella. Aih, ku merindukan sinetron tu.

其实，我也很想念看台湾电视剧。明天早上 8 点 30 分 有播《爱就宅一起》。以前曾经播过，可是我还要看。呵呵。 我喜欢杨丞琳。可爱啦。其实我以前也蛮喜欢飞轮海。可能也是因为受了朋友的影响。 现在我的朋友们大多数都讲英文的。如果一直不练习讲或写话语的话，怕当长大后把华语忘掉了。不行啦，华人是应该讲华语的吗。可是因为我是马来西亚人，所以我会讲和写马来文，英文，甚至话语。☺
好了啦，要煮饭了。也还没冲凉。呵呵。下次才继续把。希望等一下可以好好练习功课，不然考试时惨了。好吧，再见！

Satu Malaysia :3

Ninja ♥

The making of my little felt Ninja. 18 July 2010. =)

The end product of my lovely Ninja! :) New my profile picture for Facebook. ♥

Made it into a necklace. I love it so much! Oh Ninja.

Ninja.. Beauty is like Ninja. It does not reveal on the outside. :)

Being born shy, I describe myself as a Ninja.

Sometimes I'm quiet, sometimes I hide.

Like a ninja, I do things without announcing it for the world to see.

But sometimes, people could see me and understand me.

Since I do not show, people may mistaken and criticize or pull me down in life, but go ahead because it doesn't work. I'm in His armour. :)

Well, not anyone can see me, not anyone can understand me.

Only some who sees my inside would know.

Unlike usual, we understand things by its surface, proof or what is shown.

I, hardly show or say what I mean deep inside of me.

Sometimes, I think negatively because I hope to be proven wrong.

Sometimes, I hurt myself by being a Ninja.

The wounds, the blood. Hardly anyone notices them either.

Hidden behind the black cloth, only what I put on can be seen.

As my definition of Ninja, it is quiet, shy but daring, weak made strong, hidden or invisible to many people.

It does good things behind people.

Sometimes, people may kill me for being mistaken for doing something bad, but I'll take the blame and pray for them.

Only to certain people or certain times, I'd take off my black cloth.

But I'll never show the whole world how I look or what I do, for I'd rather stay unknown and unhide happily with close people than to stand infront of a crowd of acquaintences being praised or over complimented on.

I will not take the colorful, sweet candy, I will not be fooled for it.

I, will stand strong on a rock in the presence of my Saviour.

I.. was inspired by this site since I was a small kid, which includes;

Matthew 6:1-8

1"Be careful not to do your 'acts of righteousness' before men, to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven.

2"So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. 3But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, 4so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.

5"And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. 6But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. 7And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. 8Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.

:)

Switchfoot - She Says (The Black Eyed Blues) Lyrics

Looking for reasons

To believe instead of doubt

A way in instead of out

There's got to be a reason

Looking for answers

For the hatred and pain

When they both start to feel the same

There's got to be a reason

Only one breath at a time, she says

All my tears are falling on the floor, she says

I've never felt it rain like this before, she says

I'll sing these black eyed blues into the storm instead

I'll be waiting for the new eyes to arrive

One breath at a time

Kings and queens and little dreams

Are stuck inside these nightmares sometimes, sometimes

And the fairy tales we play

Seem so far away from where she was tonight

Sometimes

I hear her talking to herself in bed

All my tears are falling on the floor, she says

I've never felt it rain like this before, she says

I'll sing these black eyed blues into the storm instead

I'll be waiting for the new eyes to arrive

One breath at a time

Oh, one breath at a time

Oh, one breath at a time

Oh, one breath at a time

Oh, and I'm holding on to you

And I won't let go

The world is torn in two

But I won't let go

You're the only thing that's true

In this whole world of black eyed blues

And disillusioned points of view

When the pain feels like a knife, she says

I'm not giving up tonight, she says

Oh, she says

Oh, she says

I'll be waiting for the new eyes to arrive, she says

She says

Oh, she says

Oh, she says

Oh, she says

I'll be waiting for the new eyes to arrive

Love this song.

The Unseen

In life, people may celebrate for the people who did something good.

The people who had been credited and given the name.

Sometimes, they may be hypocrites.

Sometimes, they do it to show people.

Sometimes, they do it for their own benefit, not others.

Sometimes, they put on their best dress and make up to show the world their beauty.

But..

What is true beauty?

Well in some cases, you'll have to look deeper in the heart.

Some of my thoughts were always these..

Those who did all the preperations behind the camera, behind the stage curtains.

Those who does not want any credit for their own benefit.

Those who do not dress up to fascinate people.

Those who keep their priorities, identities and origins.

Matthew 6:2-4 says..

So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. 3But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, 4so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.

The truth..

Monday

A random camwhore picture of me. :B

School today. Exam next week. Only one week to study, didn't had he time before that because of the so many activities we had in school. Hope I manage to do better this term. :)

Enjoyed Connexion yesterday. I like it because I understand what they preach about the Bible, and I get to hear the views and opinions from people of other nation, race, background and experiences. The discussion was great.

I tod my friend who is a new believer about what they talked about last night. I explained and try to make her understand. She told me, if I didn't explain to her all these, she would have never understand or know more about Him. :) Although I'm no good in it, but thank God for speaking for me so that she could understand =)

Had a great time.

Passed up my poster art to teacher today, the competition for posters with the theme 'Reading is Fun' or something, don't know the exact translation to English. Something like, reading is a good habit. It's in conjunction with the library week or whatever they call it. Spent a lot of time on the poster.

Oh, can't wait for my order to arrive! Then I could create more things :B But exam is next week! Oh exam. Good thing is that it's just a small exam. Finals would be scary.

Oh please, give me the inspiration to study? Attending a seminar called 'Study Smart', but it's exactly the week after exam is over >< Nevermind, from there I hope I'll study smart for the rest of the times. Yes I don't like studying hard, just not my nature. :)

Life is short, the world is our temporary home. With the hope of Eternity, how would you change the way you live on earth? My motto says, live simply, give more, expect less! :)

Have faith!

Happy :D

Last few days, I was feeling lifeless and without mood. I don't know what to do or what to feel. Wasted many hours doing nothing.

Then on Sunday, Janning asked me to go to Connexion. Well maybe He's calling me. So I just went, although I felt quite lazy, lifeless and tired. But all the more I should go right?

So I went. I really had a great time there. Received the message told. Got back my inspiration to life. Felt like I have life again. Knowing that God has His master plan for us. And all we got to do is just trust Him. Trust & have faith in Him, and one day when hindsight is 20/20, we'll feel so great and know that His plan for us is just, so, amazing. :)

So today, Monday. School. Brought my little Bible along. Our class and a few other classes had to sit at the open hall for an hour or something because we did not lock our class on Friday I guess? Ah, that make my leg so pain, because we already sat for an hour listening to the morning talks.  -.-

Well, after recess, we had this seminar by Edmira School of Success. At the beginning of it, we each received 2 papers. We were asked to fill in the little form at the bottom of one of the paper for lucky draw. And with my happy and a little high mood, I entertained myself. Alright, write with neat handwritings because I'm going to be one of the lucky 5. And at the end of the seminar, true enough, I am! xD Hahaha. Same thing happened when I was at Daniel Yoong's album launch. I was with my cousin buying his album, and the person infront of us got this entry number 88 or something and immediately my mind was like, aww man if only we were one place infront from where we were because they're going to win the lucky draw. Cool enough, the very first lucky draw winner was them. Haha! Funny la. I remember when I was really small. My family and I went to Tadika Diyana's lantern day event or something. My mum told me to hold he lucky draw paper and if we win, I'm supposed to go and get the prize. So they announced many many other winners. And just out of randomness my mind read the number of the lucky draw I'm holding, number by number, as the speaker followed what I said. Then being small and blur, I just went to the speaker, gave the little paper I was holding, and I took the prize. Haha so funny la.

Yea so anyway, had fun today during the seminar. I think 80% of the time I was laughing. Eddie Lim was the speaker and he was just so funny xD

Stole this picture from their Facebook Page  :P From Edmira School of Success by the way. Eddie is a former national exponent and was a professional athlete as well. And he's going out there to reach out and motivate students :)

Oh, guess this is the first time I posted an image of myself in ICT uniform. x) Shh, I folded my sleeves! Okay it was really stuffy and hot there. Crazy stuffy. ._. Really.

Okay that's all for now. Ciao!

God Bless!