Tuesday, October 30, 2007

The source of a changed life

Please spend some time reading this post. =) You can draftly read it, as that was what I did and decided to share it. =)

Have you ever found yourself saying, "I hate my life"? How can a person experience true life change? Positive change?

- By Josh McDowell

I longed to be happy. I wanted to be one of the happiest people in the entire world. I also desired meaning in life. I was looking for answers to the questions:
"Who am I?"
"Why in the world am I here?"
"Where am I going?"

More than that, I also longed to be free. I wanted to be one of the freest people in the whole world. Freedom to me was not simply doing what you want to do--anyone can do that. Freedom, for me, meant having the power to do what you know you ought to do. Most people know what they ought to do but don't have the power to do it. So I started looking for answers.

Where can one find positive change?
It seemed that almost everyone was into some sort of religion, so I did the obvious thing and went to church. I must have hit the wrong church, though, because it only made me feel worse. I went to church morning, noon and night, but it didn't help. I'm very practical, and when something doesn't work, I chuck it. So, I gave up religion.

I began to wonder if prestige was the answer. Being a leader, accepting some cause, giving yourself to it, and being popular might do it, I thought. At the university I attended, the student leaders held the purse strings and threw their weight around. So I ran for freshman class president and got elected. It was great having everyone know me, making the decisions, and spending the university's money to get speakers I wanted. It was great, but it wore off like everything else I had tried. I would wake up Monday morning (usually with a headache because of the night before) and my attitude was, "Well, here goes another five days." I endured Monday through Friday. Happiness revolved around three nights a week--Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Then the vicious cycle began all over again.

Seeking life change, positive change
I suspect that few people in the universities and colleges of this country were more sincere about trying to find meaning, truth, and purpose in life than I was.

During that time I noticed a small group of people--eight students and two faculty members. There was something different about their lives. They seemed to know why they believed what they believed. They also seemed to know where they were going.

The people I began to notice didn't just talk about love--they got involved. They seemed to be riding above the circumstances of university life. While everyone else seemed under the pile, they appeared to have a content, peaceful state about them that wasn't driven by circumstances. They appeared to possess an inner, constant source of joy. They were disgustingly happy. They had something I didn't have.

Like the average student, when somebody had something I didn't have, I wanted it. So, I decided to make friends with these intriguing people. Two weeks after that decision we were all sitting around a table in the student union--six students and two faculty members. The conversation started to get around to God.

Asking about life change, positive change
They were bothering me, so finally I looked over at one of the students, a good-looking woman (I used to think all Christians were ugly); and I leaned back in my chair (I didn't want the others to think I was interested) and I said, "Tell me, what changed your lives? Why are your lives so different from the others on campus?"

That young woman must have had a lot of conviction. She looked me straight in the eye and said two words I never thought I'd hear as part of a solution in a university: "Jesus Christ."
I said, "Oh, for God's sake, don't give me that garbage. I'm fed up with religion. I'm fed up with the church. I'm fed up with the Bible. Don't give me that garbage about religion."

She shot back, "Hey, I didn't say religion, I said Jesus Christ." She pointed out something I'd never known before: Christianity is not a religion. Religion is when human beings try to work their way to God through good works; Christianity is God coming to men and women through Jesus Christ to offer a relationship with himself.

There are probably more people in universities with misconceptions about Christianity than anywhere else in the world. Some time ago I met a teaching assistant who remarked in a graduate seminar that "anyone who walks into a church becomes a Christian." I replied, "Does walking into a garage make you a car?" I was told that a Christian is somebody who genuinely believes in Christ.

As I considered Christianity, my new friends challenged me intellectually to examine Jesus' life. I found out that Buddha, Mohammed and Confucius never claimed to be God, but Jesus did. My friends asked me to look over the evidence for Jesus' deity. They were convinced that Jesus was God in human form who died on the cross for the sins of mankind, that he was buried, that he arose three days later, and that he could change a person's life today.

I thought this was a farce. In fact, I thought most Christians were walking idiots. I'd met some. I used to wait for a Christian to speak up in the classroom so I could tear him or her up one side and down the other, and beat the professor to the punch. I imagined that if a Christian had a brain cell it would die of loneliness. I didn't know any better.

But these people challenged me over and over. Finally, I accepted their challenge. I did it out of pride to refute them, thinking there were no facts. I assumed there wasn't any evidence a person could evaluate.

After many months of study, my mind came to the conclusion that Jesus Christ must have been who he claimed to be. That presented quite a problem. My mind told me all this was true but my will was pulling me in another direction.

I discovered that becoming a Christian was rather ego-shattering. Jesus Christ made a direct challenge to my will to trust him. Let me paraphrase him. "Look! I have been standing at the door and I am constantly knocking. If anyone hears me calling him and opens the door, I will come in" (Revelation 3:20). I didn't care if Christ did walk on water or turn water into wine, I didn't want any party-pooper around. I couldn't think of a faster way to ruin a good time. So here my mind was telling me Christianity was true and my will was running away.
More aware that I hate my life

Whenever I was around those enthusiastic Christians, the conflict would begin. If you've ever been around happy people when you're miserable, you understand how they can bug you. They would be so happy and I would be so miserable that I'd literally get up and run right out of the student union. It came to the point where I'd go to bed at ten at night, and I wouldn't get to sleep until four in the morning. I knew I had to get it off my mind before I went out of my mind! Finally my head and my heart connected on December 19, 1959, at 8:30 p.m. during my second year at the university--I became a Christian.

That night I prayed four things to establish a relationship with Jesus Christ which has since transformed my life. First, I said, "Lord Jesus, thank you for dying on the cross for me." Second, I said, "I confess those things in my life that aren't pleasing to you and ask you to forgive me and cleanse me." Third, I said, "Right now, in the best way I know how, I open the door of my heart and life and trust you as my Savior and Lord. Take control of my life. Change me from the inside out. Make me the type of person you created me to be." The last thing I prayed was, "Thank you for coming into my life by faith." It was a faith based not upon ignorance but upon the evidence of history and God's Word.

I'm sure you've heard various religious people talking about their personal bolt-of-lightning experience. Well, after I prayed, nothing happened. I mean nothing. And I still didn't sprout wings. In fact, after I made that decision, I felt worse. I literally felt I was going to vomit. Oh, no, I thought, what did you get sucked into now? I really felt I'd gone off the deep end (and I'm sure some people think I did!).

God and life change, positive change
But in six months to a year-and-a-half, I found out that I hadn't gone off the deep end. My life was changed. I was once in a debate with the head of the history department at a Midwestern university, and I said my life had been changed. He interrupted me with "McDowell, are you trying to tell us that God really changed your life in the 20th century? What areas?" After 45 minutes he said, "OK, that's enough." Let me tell you a few of the things I told him and the audience that day.

One area God changed was my restlessness. I always had to be occupied. I'd walk across the campus and my mind was like a whirlwind with conflicts bouncing around the walls. I'd sit down and try to study, but I couldn't. A few months after I made that decision for Christ, a kind of mental peace developed. Don't misunderstand. I'm not talking about the absence of conflict. What I found in this relationship with Jesus wasn't absence of conflict but the ability to cope with it. I wouldn't trade that for anything in the world.

Another area that started to change was my bad temper. I used to blow my stack if somebody just looked at me cross-eyed. I still have the scars from almost killing a guy my first year at college. My temper was such a part of me that I didn't try to consciously change it. I arrived at the crisis of losing my temper only to find it was gone! Only once in 14 years have I exploded (and when I blew it that time, I made up for it for about six years!).

Positive change on hatred
There's another area of which I'm not proud. But I mention it because a lot of people need to have the same change in their lives, and I found the source of change: a relationship with Jesus Christ. That area is hatred. I had a lot of hatred in my life. It wasn't something outwardly manifested, but there was a kind of inward grinding. I was ticked off with people, with things, with issues.

But I hated one man more than anyone else in the world: my father. I hated his guts. To me he was the town alcoholic. Everybody knew my dad was a drunk. My friends would make jokes about my father staggering around downtown. They didn't think it bothered me. I was like other people--laughing on the outside. But let me tell you, I was crying on the inside. There were times I'd go out in the barn and see my mother beaten so badly she couldn't get up, lying in the manure behind the cows. When we had friends over, I would take my father out, tie him up in the barn, and park the car around the silo. We would tell our friends he'd had to go somewhere. I don't think anyone could have hated anyone more than I hated my father.

After I made that decision for Christ, he entered my life and his love was so strong that he took the hatred and turned it upside down. I was able to look my father squarely in the eyes and say, "Dad, I love you." And I really meant it. After some of the things I'd done, that shook him up.

When I transferred to a private university I was in a serious car accident. With my neck in traction, I was taken home. I'll never forget my father coming into my room. He asked me, "Son, how can you love a father like me?" I said, "Dad, six months ago I despised you." Then I shared with my dad the conclusions I had come to about Christ: "Dad, I let Jesus Christ come into my life. I can't explain it completely, but as a result of that relationship I've found the capacity to love and accept not only you but other people just the way they are."

Forty-five minutes later one of the greatest thrills of my life occurred. Somebody in my own family, someone who knew me so well I couldn't pull the wool over his eyes, said to me, "Son, if God can do in my life what I've seen him do in yours, then I want to give him the opportunity." Right there my father prayed with me and trusted Christ for the forgiveness of his sins.

Usually the changes take place over several days, weeks, months, or even a year. The life of my father was changed right before my eyes. It was as if somebody reached down and turned on a light bulb. I've never seen such a rapid change before or since. My father touched whiskey only once after that. He got it as far as his lips and that was it. I've come to one conclusion. A relationship with Jesus Christ changes lives.

The Life change, positive change
You can laugh at Christianity. You can mock and ridicule it. But it works. It changes lives. If you trust Christ, start watching your attitudes and actions because Jesus Christ is in the business of changing lives.

But Christianity is not something you can shove down somebody's throat. All I can do is tell you what I've learned. After that, it's your decision.

Perhaps the prayer I prayed will help you: "Lord Jesus, I need you. Thank you for dying on the cross for me. Forgive me and cleanse me. Right at this moment I trust you as Savior and Lord. Make me the type of person you created me to be. In Christ's name. Amen."

Josh McDowell is an internationally known speaker, author, and traveling representative for Campus Crusade for Christ. He has written more than fifty books, including the classics More Than A Carpenter and Evidence That Demands A Verdict.

Thankyou so much for reading =)

Sunday, October 28, 2007

Oktoberfest, One Utama

Oktoberfest is a festival in Germany when people celebrate drinking.
It is held every year during October.
It is held in 1 Utama this year, as the third time.
It's my second year there..
They sell 1000 bottles per day of Warsteiner beer from Germany for only RM0.50 x2(RM1), RM1 note not available..

Very nice.. *but BECKS nicer xD

Then if no more, you can buy the other brands, but its RM10..
Then they have band performances and activities and all..
Band performance by the Intaller Musikanten from Germany..
I learned the Chicken Dance!! very cute very nice very =D very.. =D
But..... This year not as nice as last year.. Know why? because got no Ali!! From Intaller Musikanten one la.. Last year that batch more sporting more fun more... fun.. =P

Saturday I only drank half bottle..
Then...... Sunday I got 1 bottle =D but not high at all wan =.=
Haha. Drink for fun one la.. not like drinkers..
Almost 1 year didn't drink already... haha

Then they have those table football thing, RM2 for 9 balls.. My sisters and I played RM2.. So fast gone.. T.T
Oh yea.. I remember.. I first come up from rainforest only I saw a schoolmate.. Jun Kit working as Daves Deli... then Sunday if I didn't see wrongly, Su Kheng also helped..
Malu la when I go buy food....

Last year waited so long for this year's, then so fast this year's over, now waiting for next year's xD Haha.
Ok lets wait..

Aiyo.. still October 2007 la.. =.=

Haha. Thanks for reading =)

Friday, October 26, 2007

Ulu Bendul 2004 and 2007

I went camping over night in Ulu Bendul at 2004 as the first time..
Went with my family and my cousin and my cousin's brother's(also my cousin la) wife's brother.
Ulu Bendul during 2004 :-

Me helping Wei Aun(cousin) to set the tent up.

Our" area.. kinda big.. so nice.. haha

Also our territory".. That big rock is the sign of where we camp.. called "our rock".. haha

found a 'fishing rod with real hook and stuff.. made out of a stick.. so we tried to catch some fishy fishy.. but cannot one.. haha the guppies terlalu kecil xD

This is how we wash our cooking stuff.. use the sand and the river water to wash, and it turns out super clean and shinier than using soap =D

Playing Wei Aun's frisbee..

And that's him

Trying to scare my dad(taking the photos) haha

water fight! dam cold... like ice..

We all kena.. haha

later on she kena by Janning

Dad gathering fire woods for the night

'mucho mucho.. haha

the jacuzzi I made.. Better than jacuzzi.. nice freexing water + super strong flow.. took quite some time to get stable.. xD

Janning showing off her scout skills making her hanger. haha she say one

Making a fire with 3 matches competition. pro won =P Wei Aun..

This is how we cook.. Haha

Why always take sesat photo one?

We cooking our hotdogs..

Next day.. Leaving..

The last shot taken in Ulu Bendul

Ulu Bendul 2007:-

A lot more sunlight.

Weather almost normal

They had a jamboree there..

This is how we make our drinks cold..

Janning deleted mine.. =(

A bit the wicked".. stairs super steep and small..

View from second floor'

And highest floor.

Looking down.

May God Bless You =)


Very sad la...... the place has so much bad difference.. ='(

Was made during the Jamboree



I wanna go on it... all of them.. especially the fire fox.. =)

Out of sudden got a cage with animals..

Dad resting on the chairs made during the Jamboree.. Very comfortable one..

Then come out like that xD


Look at the water... aiyo.....

I love that one... but the water.. got nothing to change if I drop.. haha

Very shaky one.. challenging =)

Opposite the Entrance of Ulu Bendul

I should be going there again with scouts.. I plan to go since they said they are having it.. So exited for it.. but... no friends.. =.=.. See how... =( I must go wei!!!! T.T aiyo..

Haha. K la..
Thanks for reading =)

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

First things first

Every day God gives us 24 hours to spend. It can be easy to rush around doing all sort of things, and find out that we've used all our time up. Then, just as we're about to go to sleep, suddenly realise, 'Oh no - I haven't spent any time with God! ... Oh! ... Er... Dear Lord ... snore ... snore ...'

God created us with thinking minds so we could talk with Him and plan the best ways to use our time and energy. He created us to enjoy our work and be part of His plans. And we miss out on life when we don't do that. So why not find time for God right now?

Spend time asking God to help you put Him first in everything. When God is No.1 in your life, you'll find that you want to please Him more each day.

Ants are amazing creatures that organise themselves and work together... without being nagged!
Ants are workers not shirkers. They don't need teacher ants to tell them to be quiet and get on with their work, or leader ants to nag them into doing their bit. They get all six legs on the go because if they don't work NOW they'll have nothing to eat later on.
How we work affects our future. If were slap-dash with our school work it will show in our assessments.
Our work will be much better if we can set targets and give eveything our best shot. 'Whatever you do, work with all your heart'. Don't be anti-work, be like an ant at work.

Ants to-do list
Give myself the job of heading the nearest leaf.
Cut it into smaller pieces, load up and carry it back to the nest. Tell myself to return for more pieces and so on. Keep myself at it till the job's done.

Project planning
Spend time having a look at what needs to be done.
Work out the best way to get the project done.
Get started.
Don't be put off by other people.
Trust that God will give you success.

Plan it. Start it. Keep praying. Keep going. Finnish it. Praise God!

- When you do something, make sure you carry on until you are being able to say, 'It is finnished!'. -

*Be strong! *Don't worry! *God is with you!