To-Do List

Here are my list of things to be done! I really felt like doodling. It feels so long since I last draw. But well, yea... That's a lot of things to explain if I were to list them down in words. So there you go, if you could actually guess what each doodle means. :) I'm being a little random today, just felt like blogging! Oh right, it's been years and I think I should give my blog a little makeover. Don't you think?

{+:Project LOVE}

This is a little something we did on Valentine's Day this 2012. It was totally a last minute inspiration, and we started the 'project' just the night before. We brainstormed and searched for some meaningful quotes to give to the public, then printed and cut each of the quote into name card sized, on the next day (Valentine's Day) itself. We also got ourselves helium heart balloons and wrote 'Free Hugs' so we could carry the message wherever we go.
As we give these out, we got a lil discouraged especially when we get rejected by people thinking we are some promoters or charity etc. and when we got stopped by a mall's management team for the reason of disturbing their customers. But that was our challenge, to be able to move on even though people try to push us down. And there are no reason for us to stop, but get back up again! :)
At some points, people ask us where are we from and why are we doing these. We tell them with a big smile, we're not from anywhere or representing anything, we're doing all these for one purpose, and that purpose is love! :) I remember just before we went back, Marissa gave one of her last quotes to this lady who was sitting by the roadside. We were about to go ahead but I had the urge to give her my helium balloon and hug, and to my surprise she was so happy and told me how stressed she was earlier! I'm sure she went home with a happy heart. :) Also, this man had a long talk with us, as we try to explain what the quote means, in a different dialect. He definitely paused to smile, after his long day of work. He told us, we were very special and he has never seen such thing before. And that definitely made us smile too! :)
At the end of the day, we managed to give out all 212 quotes. Although it is not a big amount, I bet we made a difference to that 212! :)

*Update: I woke up to know that I had 212 views already! I wonder what's with the number 212, but I know it's the year 2012! Well that's a lot of love to me, thank you so much for watching! Hope this made your day! :D

Why keep love when we can give? :)
Hope that this video made YOUR day too! *HUGS* ♥

To Marissa, Christian, Shum and Kadri, thank you for everything! Love you guys :)

- Jesslyn L


Ps. Sorry for the really poor quality pictures, we didn't have any photographer to help us, so we just used iPod camera instead! :)
That was 6 over hours of video editing for a 3 minute video, but it sure is worth it if this could share the love around!
Again, THANKS FOR WATCHING, GOD BLESS YOU! ♥

BU Prom 2011

Was held at Tropicana Golf & Country Club. Marissa and I went there as photographers for Rhonwyn. We wore identical outfits and the camera necklace I recently made. Proud to be a photographer. :)

Met up with Junmey, met Daniel from Wanted Symphony and got their stickers. Later, we chilled at the cafeteria downstairs and had a drink. Was due to an unexpected black out at the whole surrounding area, so we kinda had 2 hours of candlelight dinner. :P But the whole black out was what made the night unforgettable! So the line up of events and performances started at about 9.45pm.
Kendrick started by performing 2 songs, one dedicated to his date.
Then there were performances by ABeatC beatboxing and some dances to it.
Zenny Salidhuddin who previously studied at BU also came to perform her single, Kau Kau.
There was a lil break, and then Wanted Symphony performed.
People were dancing and having fun all around, and Marissa and I were photographing the moments of the night. :)
The stage, the lights, the music... I loved the atmosphere so much!
Not to forget the dressed and the prom king and queen announcement and prize giving.
Guess who were the prom king and queen? Jeanne and Alex! Awwe they were so sweet together, danced the night and, xoxo!
I smiled behind the camera. :)
After that was like a disco clubbing atmosphere, just music, lights and dance!
That was about it. A night as a photographer, met with great friends I don't meet often and many new awesome people. I enjoyed the night. :) We got home at almost 2am.
The night was stuck in my head, although I was just the event photographer. But it surely was a success and a very memorable night and experience! :)
Thank you Rhonwyn and BU for having is there. :) Pictures will be uploaded on my Facebook!

Eye Doctor

Hello mello! I had an appointment with the eye doctor this morning because of my scary red eye on the left part of my left eye. It had been about a month and it's not getting any better.

So Janning fetched my dad and I to the government hospital nearby, which is also the place Janning is working at. Cool huh.

After waiting about an hour plus, my number was finally called. First, I checked my eyesight. Then I waited again for my turn to see the eye doctor.

I think I spent about half an hour with the doctor. She asked me questions and I drowned her with all my conditions. Okay, I actually forgot to tell her about some other conditions of my eyes weeks ago. But ah it's over. :)

It wasn't so nice for my pair of poor eyes. They got poked by a twisted cotton, touched with some special paper, drowned by various eye drops, even a temporary dyed eye drop. Daddy said I looked like incredible hulk for a moment. 8)

They also checked my eye pressure. How weird is that. Yet again they used this funny tool or whatever it is called to touch my eyes. You know, I hate things touching my eyes. It's painful! I never dared to wear contacts. Maybe because I also have dry eyes.

Right, dry eyes. At the end, the doctor said that my left eye is really really very dry. So she prescribed me two medications, one of them is some mild steroid drops, another one I had to buy myself at a pharmacy. It's the preservative-free artificial tears. See the picture? There are 30 tubes in a box. Not cheap. One tube can only last a day because there's no preservatives.

And that's about it.

Well, it was kinda cool because Janning works there. I didn't have to take a number and wait to collect the steroid drops. Then we chatted a while as we waited for my mum to come pick us up.

My left eye was half blind by then. I've no idea what the doctor put on my eye but dad and my sis said it wasn't really red anymore. It felt as if I had some bad cataract. So blur and glaring! But after a few hours, which is right now, my vision is back to normal.

Well, thank God for everything that went well today! :)

Thank God for my eyes so I could see. ♥

Joe Brooks Contest Submission

Hi everyone! I'm tuning into Fly.FM right now waiting for the results.

I really hope I was early enough - I submitted mine an hour before Jay Dee's Music Revolution.

I'd like to share my little art for Joe here with everyone. :)

My question for Joe is: 'Why do I blow my lines every time you're on Fly.FM?'

If you're wondering what this is all about, the contest details are here: http://apps.flyfm.com.my/exclusive/joebrooks/

My favorite song by Joe Brooks is SUPERMAN! :)

xoxo

Plans After Exams

I know it's been quite a long hiatus here, months at least... There goes the life of a high school leaver, well half year of it maybe. But I'm here to update that I'll be back real soon, with improvements to come! :) I'm feeling so anticipated and I just can't wait for it, SPM is going to be over in just 6 days! I remember when the numbers were like 150, 149, 148... Like whoa, I've been through all these days thick and thin! Okay I think I sound a little high at the moment? I'm so excited, let me just share with you some of the things I'm looking forward to do right after SPM.

1) Get my 'toy' lens!
Toy lens? Well many people call it a toy basically because the particular model of the lens I'm about to get costs real cheap. Or else I wouldn't even afford it! But well, I love everything else about it. What lens? I'll probably make a little review on it. So stay tuned!

2) Get a music keyboard!
Somewhere back in my older posts, I wrote about the Yamaha Tyros keyboards. Those are just a dream to get one. :( But well, after about 7 years of wanting a keyboard, my dad finally allowed me to get one! All on me, of course. But for the love of music, I can't complain! Well I do have a piano, not exactly mine but it's at home. It's probably over 30 years old, it sounds great, it's a Yamaha, but the parts need to be changed because at random times, the keys would get 'stuck' and wouldn't sound and that would cost the price of a keyboard. So I thought maybe I'll get a keyboard, since it has so many other functions. Maybe when I get my own house then I'll fix the piano. But anyway, playing the piano can make me happy, and it can also make me cry. It's like some mood communication only music can speak. Yes, that's how I describe it.

3) Blog, blogshop, photography blog, etc.
It's going to be a little makeover. I plan to get more motivated to blog all my thoughts and share it with everyone. Well, whatever happened in my lifetime, good or bad, are blessings. So I just thought, why not bless others with this life that I'm being blessed with? :) I hope time and discipline would work together for this, I admit I have a lot of sites. 8)

4) YouTube!
Whether is it a cover, a short film, a composed song or a message... I hope to find a suitable name for my channel and work on it. Yes, I've to get out of my comfort zone and stop being shy, it won't take me anywhere. :) Well this one is a little challenge though, because I'll need my family to be out of the house before I can do any recording. Nope, I don't have a room to myself, nor a soundproof room. So I'll just do with what I could. :) Maybe I should make better recordings of my previous composes... Anyway, next one:

5) Driving license!
I always dream of driving, both awake and asleep. Yes, a million times. I don't know why. But I know I fell in love with the bumper cars I played when I was probably 5 years old? And we used to have this toy that has a mini screen with a steering wheel and would work with 6 huge sized batteries. I loved it, I'd even go imaginary driving without the batteries on! And then car games, I remember I was about to be the top 50 players in the world for this game called Topspeed. That was just 3 years back. :P And 2 years back? I drove my friend's little car. With their guidance of course! It was just a little stroll around the roundabout and I hardly pressed any petrol but seriously, that joy sparkled my night! And then my dad finally had a little trust on me to drive his car. I drove about 3 different short times, I guess. He guided me on the manual steering. And on the third time, my mum was in the car as well. And I showed her my driving. I still remember, I accelerated and came to a stop as smooth and steadily. Oh, but I did not get to drive anymore after that because my dad's car's clutch is wearing off and he won't allow me to touch it. So oh well, I'll wait till I learn driving. :)

6) Cooking, baking, household etc.
I hope this works out, I want to discipline myself to do some of the daily chores my mum had been doing for twenty over years, daily. Well surely cooking and grocery shopping is surely not a problem, in fact I look forward to it! Oh I love cooking food out of the daily style of home-cooked food I eat everyday, so I always come out with some impromptu dishes that may be so good that sometimes I don't know how I made it, but if course I have the failures too. :) But well yea, I hope at least for these few months before college, I'll learn how to do the many things I hardly do.

7) Exercise.
Be it a stroll around the park, basketball, cycling, jogging, badminton... I just need to feel healthy after living with all these stacks of books for I don't know how long. It's not nice to be sick! :)

8) Art, crafts, etc.
The usuals. But I've been abandoning them for quite some time!

9) Mosaic community studio.
I know SPM had been a big burden to me, but not any longer soon! :)

10) The project.
School's over, what project? Well it's basically a plan I had in mind 2 years ago, and after going through thick and thin, praying and praying, I guess it's time I commit everything to God. I'll just do my best and leave the rest. It is better to take risks than nothing at all. :) Again, what project am I talking about? Okay, time will unveil these things. ;)

11) Korean spectacles.
Random? No. I had been wearing specs since primary 6, but no I never dared to wear it in public! Okay I do sometimes. But really, after the excessive studying and facing electronic screens, my eye sight is getting bad. Just bad. It should be time I wear my specs full time. I'll get one that suits me. Well Korean plastics are really famous and they suit almost everyone so, most probably I'll be getting one too! :)

I was supposed to stop at 10, but never mind, more is good. ;) That's just some of my sneak peeks of what I want to do after my exams. Yup, just some. Crazy? That's me. ;) Overall, I'll need a very very good time management and discipline to get all the above and more in my daily to-do's. So here goes my update, stay tuned!

Pain

Pain can't be seen, but can be felt.
The worst thing is to fake a smile and let people see how fine we are, but yet the inside is a bleeding heart.
Sometimes I'm so hurt, I say things opposite of what I mean, wishing to be proven wrong. But many times I'm left with a broken heart. Well, they can't see my hurt, can they. My face is like a book cover. Don't judge a book by it's cover. Looks can be deceiving.

Well one thing I'm sure about is that, no matter how left out or alone I feel in this world, I am not left out or alone in God's presence. He loves me and will never ever leave me. He mends the broken hearted. He died on the cross for you and me. While we were still sinners, He loved us and forgave us. What a friend we have in Jesus. :')

Life Purpose

This is your life, are you who you want to be?

What we do, counts. Your one single life matters, whether or not you realize it.

Our creation is not an accident; And it is only through our Creator that we can find our purpose of life. :)

I'm slowly starting to see my purpose in this life God has given me.

It is really amazing to see how the little imperfect puzzle pieces go into place as we grow.

It takes time to see these revelations. I am amazed and delighted. ♥

You know, life can be really hard.

It's not easy, it can be a struggle at times.

But, it is only during the darkest times when we could see how bright the stars are. :)

For if we didn't fall, how could we get up?

If we never failed, how would we learn?

If we never felt pain, will we appreciate love?

You may have heard, 'we never know what we've got till we've lost them'.

It is true, because it is our nature that we take things for granted.

But no, that's not how we should be!

I am writing this to you who are reading it and also to myself. I am honored that you're reading this, and I believe it's no accident that you're reading this post now. :)

Talents. We are all given this gift. It's a matter of when do we open it, and how do we choose to use it.

I'd like to use it for the good and right purposes, and share it. So that...

" When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything You gave me." ~Erma Bombeck "

The purpose of life is to live a life of purpose. :)

Thanks for reading! ♥

God Bless You.

Every Teardrop Is A Waterfall

That's a teardrop I painted, and the words written around it is the title of this blog post.

I like the music of Coldplay's current latest song - Every Teardrop Is A Waterfall.

Plus the lyrics of the first two sentence and the wonderful Koss earphones, I just have to shut my eyes and it feels like I'm in some music world.

"I turn the music up and shut the world outside."

It brings me to Lalaland.

Yup.

That's the title of my iPod playlist - Lalaland. :)

Here's the lyrics:

Coldplay - Every Teardrop Is A Waterfall

I turn the music up, I got my records on
I shut the world outside until the lights come on 
Maybe the streets alight, maybe the trees are gone
I feel my heart start beating to my favorite song

And all the kids they dance, all the kids all night
Until Monday morning feels another life
I turn the music up
I'm on a roll this time
And heaven is in sight

I turn the music up, I got my records on
From underneath the rubble sing a rebel song
Don't want to see another generation drop
I'd rather be a comma than a full stop

Maybe I'm in the black, Maybe I'm on my knees
Maybe I'm in the gap between the two trapezes
But my heart is beating and my pulses start cathedrals in my heart

And we saw oh this light
I swear you, emerge blinking into to tell me it's alright
As we soar walls, every siren is a sympohny
And every tear's a waterfall
Is a waterfall
Oh
Is waterfall
Oh oh oh
Is a, is a waterfall
Every tear is a waterfall 
Oh oh oh

So you can hurt, hurt me bad
But still I raise the flag

Oh
It was a wa wa wa wa wa-terfall
A wa wa wa wa wa-terfall

Every tear
Every tear
Every tear
Every tear
Every teardrop is a waterfall

Every tear
Every tear
Every teardrop is a waterfall

Oh, Sister

I grow up, listening to a lot of commotions; Right here in my very own room, yet not made by me; But another member in my family, my second sister.
All these years, I never understood why, why would she treat me this way. What have I done wrong? Is my presence bothering her so much, she just couldn't leave me with my own peace of mind for once? It is not like I would touch or take her stuff like how she still tend to do it to me, which she warned me not to back when we were still young and she still talked to me.
Hey, sister. It is not like I done anything wrong to you or looked at you which you would puke seeing me, as you told your friend to tell me that, a year and a half ago. It is not like I still buy things for you and try to give it to you which you would totally ignore me and not take my gift for you, as if I were a ghost. I learnt my lessons not to act as if I'm older than you and buy treats like how a proper sister would do to her younger siblings, since it brought fear to me by your response. I still struggle trying to live this life, and not hate you but love you inside and pray to God for a miracle one fine day, though after exactly 10 years God still says wait.
Do you know, you play such a big role in this life of mine, I am not proud of my childhood. But yet I couldn't erase it, but to accept this challenge God threw me. I almost gave up life because of you, ever since I was nine years old. No one knew, just myself and God. And the very moment I attempted myself with a knife in the kitchen, God's grace fell upon me, I saw many scenes flashing back at me, with a message telling me straight into my eyes, saying that there is more to life than this! All of a sudden I felt guilty, a feeling of mixed emotions, and as though I became much mature, I had a sudden rush of understanding, and I felt that I gone too far wrong to do such silly things to myself. Washing the blood from the minor cut on my index finger, I apologized to God. I thanked Him for saving me, and it felt that I lived again, like a second chance.
Though after that I still do silly things to my physical self, the pain I feel still can't beat the pain I feel inside. Till one day, a friend of mine told me that I would go to hell if I were to kill myself. I was told that we are God's special creation, and suiciding is totally offensive, like destroying His wonderful creation.
Again, I felt guilty and sorry to God. But yet He still forgave me despite of what I've done in the past to myself, His beautiful and detailed creation. This was a year plus ago, and ever since then I never hurt myself again.
I am now seventeen years and two months old. My life this year had changed a lot, my walk with God was greater than ever before, and life began to be so colorful, as if I was colorblind before. Sometimes I would feel like crying because I'm being so blessed, so so blessed by God... His love never stops overflowing, and I am nothing compared to Him, but yet He still loves me.
I am stunned, He is more amazing than words could describe. Now I start to see what life is and slowly recognize my purpose here on earth. I am much stronger, because He is my foundation.

I don't know how to say this, but...
Dear sister, I hope you forgive me if I have done anything wrong, or whether it is just my face problem to you. No matter what happens, our blood has connections, and nothing can separate our relationship. I hope and pray for better days, and that you too stay strong in life and look at this world with a different view, and be positive. We got to count our blessings, or we'll never know how blessed we are.
I know you'll never read my blog, but I still want to try my chances.
I, love, you.

Stationary Shopping

I didn't go to school today. Partially because my eye hurts and I do not know why. It has been 3 days from now.
But anyway, I went to One Utama with my parents. Last minute. :)
I looked through the vouchers I had.(I never usually do this because I don't have any :B)
I had to use my MPH voucher before it expires so... There was where I went! :)
I bought my favorite Pilot black ink refills and some other random stuffs. All together, they cost me RM20.30. But I only paid RM1.30. :D Yup, I had an RM19 voucher! How cool is that.
I know this post is really random, but that's not all.
I also had an RM5 Mc Donalds voucher, so I bought an apple pie and a beef burger, and only paid the tax, RM0.30. Yeah man.

Okay thank you. :D

Sushi :D

Oh yummy goodness :D' *Drools!



Just ate at Sushi Q at One U. Good stuff man :) Paid half price because we bought the voucher from Groupon :D



I enjoyed every bite of them, been a while since I ate these stuff! Especially the salmon! <3



So cute :D Their Eco chopsticks.

ATCEN Young Entrepreneur Workshop

I think the last time I blogged was like when there was a blue moon. Exam was three weeks. And now I'm in my second week of my holidays! :)



I was supposed to go for this entrepreneur workshop, so I agreed to go in the end. It was on Monday and Tuesday. I'm glad I went for it, was fun! :) I have to thank my tuition teacher, Ms Ang. :)



I dragged Fariha along. Haha x)




This is Marilyn, I met her there. She's nice to meet, spent quite a lot of time with her. :)




And Jia Sheng, 2 years younger than me. :)

Along with the others which I didn't manage to get a picture with, Sherilyn, Ivan, Ian, Lam, Kar Mun, Melessa and more. Really nice to meet them but sad is, it's only for two days. And then we'll be going back our own ways. :( But oh well, God gives and takes away. :')

And that's for now. I'll try to get the official
pictures from teacher. :D

You :)

At first, all the "you's" were in the bubble, and "me" outside the bubble. But then I thought, hey maybe I should switch all the "you's" to "me" instead. :P

Hahaha. This is called, perasan. ;D

Inspiration. :)

My Ukulele! :)

Aloha! :D

Based on my previous posts on the intro of a Ukulele and the reasons why I want a Ukulele, you may already know I'd get one pretty soon.

And here you go, I got mine yesterday!

It is a Mahalo U30G - brown. Yup, came with a black gig bag! :)

Did you notice the dolphin tuner heads? Cute right! :)

Everything about it is cool. I just love it. ;)

And there goes this Mahalo Ukulele in my instrument family!

♥ Xoxo!